I called out to the Lord and He rescued me …
Have you ever just wept? Like sobbed your eyes out? Where you can barely catch your breath? When your eyes have so many tears in them, everything is blurry? And then you end up with swollen eyes and a massive headache?
Yea. That was me.
I wept out loud.
Sitting on the edge of my tub in my towel, staring at the droplets of water drying up on my legs from my shower.
It was like a large well of water poured out of me. Uncontrollable and painful and pleasant, all at the same time.
I thought to myself, why am I crying so hard? Where is all of this coming from?
Nothing terrible has happened. I mean, I was just smiling and laughing yesterday…
He knows where it’s coming from.
He knows why.
He knows everything!
Everything… that I just cannot seem to put the right words to.
He knows what is on my mind and He knows what is on my heart. And I know He is near me and He hears me.
I can feel His spirit.
I just don’t know why I’m weeping?
Is it just me?
Does anyone else do this? What’s wrong with me?
I need to get out of my head…
So, I put on some worship music..okay, this will work..right?
More tears are coming! More sobbing. I can’t catch my breath. Everything is blurry again.
God, I need you right now…
Come and rescue me.
And He whispered “Return to your rest, my soul, for the Lord has been good to you.” Psalm 116: 7 NIV