Burned Out On Religion

I have read the “The Parable of the Prodigal Son” a thousand times. I have heard pastors draw out from the older son’s conversation at the end of this parable.

Here is that conversation.

Luke 15
28 “The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. 29 But he answered his father, ‘Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30 But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!’

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I have to admit that even though this island is more than gorgeous I feel the smack of home sickness more than ever tonight. And I’m not talking only Arizona homesick, I’m feeling Cabo homesick and Seattle homesick too. When my heart sheds tears it flashes images of my goodbyes to my blood/inherited family along the way. It cries uncontrollably sometimes. But strange enough through the tears my spirit feels courageous, I feel strengthened because I know the actions I’ve made has contributed to my purpose. I can’t explain how I know, but I do. I know that He has designed the plan of my life and because of my surrender I’m on the ride of my life. I mean Puerto Rico? Really! Lol! I may not understand tonight but I steadily praise God and look forward to the day where all the pieces collide and I’m able to say “your love is crazy Lord, but it all makes sense”.

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Duned Seasons

I find myself frustrated in my current season, fighting feelings of inadequacy as I am struggling to move forward into the state of being I want to thrive in. Sometimes, honestly, a lot of times, this season feels as though I am climbing a sand dune. But the sand is loose and the dune angled steeply. I stay in the same place or slide backwards losing visual progress despite my effort. I get frustrated and I blame myself because I see it as failure. I laugh because I get nowhere and am enjoying the exhaustion of effort and ridiculousness of it all.

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Fully Living Life

Who has struggled with their own self-worth? Who has seen themselves through someone else’s judgmental eye or the expectations of society? Who has accepted some of those judgmental labels from others as your own thoughts? I want to say I am stronger than that. Stronger than to ever accept less than what my God says I am. But, if I’m being honest, I can’t say I’ve done that my whole life.

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“Just keep looking at the green dot. Focus on it. You need to look at the green dot.” It was a Saturday afternoon, and I was lying in bed thinking these thoughts over and over as I put all my energy into focusing on a particular lime green polka dot on my sheets.  I spent hours staring at that dot on that day, paralyzed with fear that if I didn’t concentrate on it fully I would just disappear and cease to exist.

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The Art of Being Single

Ever since I was a little girl, I would watch every Disney princess movie, every sappy chick-flick, and pretty much every “happily ever after” film and dream of my prince that would come and save the day–the one who would make my life whole. It’s ingrained in our culture that we cannot be fully whole without being married. Don’t get me wrong, I definitely see the perks to being married and look forward to having that special person to share life with someday, but I have come to realize the danger in society’s warped marital expectation as I’ve seen this mindset play out in my own life.
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The Young Professional Journey

Friday, August 5th, 2016 was the date. Hillsong conference 2016 in the Barclays Center was the place. There, in a room full of thousands, I believe God taught me one of the most important lessons of my life. Leading up to this trip I was extremely frustrated. Frustrated with myself, frustrated with my situation, even frustrated with God. Like He so often does, I felt God give me a sneak peak into what my life could be if I went all in with Him. And as amazing as it was, it wasn’t my current reality. The more I tried to step into that person I felt God wanted me to be, the more it seemed like I failed. Ugh, so frustrating! But that night, it all made sense.

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